After this month is over, the first thing I'll look forward to is going to bed at ten pm. I can't imagine doing that anymore. How does it feel to be able to lie in bed with an hour of reading ahead of you? I'm falling into bed at midnight or one in the morning with my clothes still on, and waking six, seven hours later. I know some people choose to have even less sleep than that...but I'm not an early bird OR a night person, do it doesn't work for me at all.

I can't imagine waking up and opening my eyes straight away; at the moment I'm rolling out of bed with my eyes closed every morning. I tend not to open them until I'm having my breakfast. I don't want a replay of the time I bit down on a hazelnut with my eyes shut, only to find out it was a piece of nutmeg instead.

I can't imagine not being tired! Or craving Elisabeth's special coffees half way through the day. I can't imagine not having a headache by two in the afternoon. You may have to remind me how it feels! I also don't remember how it feels to have a simple choice between doing nothing and writing coursework essays. At the moment, it's a threeway choice between essays, NaNo writing and doing nothing. Doing nothing never wins.

You people who occassionally read this will have to motivate me after November to carry on with the story. I'm hoping I'll have reached 50K by the 30th! Cross your fingers for me! And cross your fingers for my potentially ace new job.

(I promise that after November, the quality of these blog entries will improve.)